Once in my life

It's exactly 10:03 PM and goodness. I'm crying. why the hell am I crying? Ahh alam ko na, cguro kasi naalala ko lang yung mga days na nanjan xa, di ko lang napapansin yung presence niya. Ginawa ko xang laruan, I used him for my own good. Nagpagamit nman ako kahit alam kong masasaktan siya. I just realized na he loved me:(


It wasn't official. My feelings are on and off for him. Sometimes I only remember him when he talks to me or when I realize that I'm alone. I feel guilty that I threw away his only reminder of him for me, why did I even do that.fu. I don't know if I'm overreacting or I just miss him.


 I don't even know If I fell in love with him or I'm just stopping myself from falling since I know the consequences. I think I did fall for him but I keep on denying it to myself because it was very...unexpected. I only dreamed of being with the guy that I like, not with a guy that likes me. I was unprepared for that. He suddenly entered my life TOO FAST that I just had to stop.


Now talking to him seems pretty awkward. I think we're really better off as friends. No, not friends, more than friends, but less than lovers. I think meeting him was fate, a test on love, I learned that love can be as sweet as honey or as bitter as coffee. I experienced honey moments with him and I will always cherish that, I will always remember that he was once a part of my life. I will never forget him.


Oh my gosh. I started crying while writing this blog and I end up feeling nothing. see what I mean? on and off!  nkakaGG, Haha. well atleast I have this blog to remind me of the feeling that I feel whenever I remember him. and it's now 10:53 PM. so it was 50 minutes of drama. K. 


so here's the song that always remind me of him. Enjoy :)

OooUmm Ooo Yeah

Di ko malaman ang nadarama
Sa tuwing ikay aking nakikita
May kung ano sa damdamin
At abot-abot ang kaba

Sa araw-araw ay nagtataka?
Ang puso kong ito, o bakit ba?
Ang kilos koy nababago,
Na halos naandiyan ka na.

[CHORUS:]
Di makatulog sa gabi sa kaiisip
Sa diwa koy ikaw ang aking panaginip.
O bakit ba ikaw ang siyang laging laman ng isip ko
Sa bawat sandali ay nais kang makita
Kapag tumitig na sa akin ay ligaya
Anong hiwaga ang nadarama anong kaba

Paano mo kaya ako mapapansin?
Malaman mo kaya ang aking damdamin?
Ano ang dapat sabihin ng puso kong may pagtingin?

Sa araw-araw ay nagtataka?
Ang puso kong ito, o bakit ba?
Ang kilos koy nababago,
Na halos naandiyan ka na.

[CHORUS:]
(Instrumental)

Sa araw-araw ay nagtataka?
Ang puso kong ito, o bakit ba?
Ang kilos koy nababago,
Na halos naandiyan ka na.

[CHORUS:]

Di makatulog sa gabi sa kaiisip
Sa diwa koy ikaw ang aking panaginip.
O bakit ba ikaw ang siyang laging laman ng isip ko
Sa bawat sandali ay nais kang makita
Kapag tumitig na sa akin ay ligaya
Anong hiwaga ang nadarama anong kaba

Di makatulog sa gabi Ooo Ooo
Sa diwa ko sa isip ko

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Yes. Oh yes. KABA.. 


"Ang puso kong ito, o bakit ba?"