A father we will always remember :(

So I was just sitting here in front of my computer when all of a sudden I read this post on the internet about DILG Secretary Jesse Robredo and here I was with my oh so soft heart--- crying. I think I have been holding back these tears since this morning when I heard about the news. I have been telling myself that I shouldn't be that affected because I never knew this guy they were all talking about for days..but who the hell cares if I never knew him? He was a very good guy and I think he deserves to be given a salute..

I feel not quite fine, DILG Secretary’s body was just found this 8AM. He was lifeless. I feel really sad since even if I never really knew him personally, I knew his daughters and I know how good they are and how unfortunate of them to experience such great loss and tragedy. I know that Jesse Robredo was a good man, I never really thought of doubting that since from the very beginning his legacy was already imprinted on me as a child. I never heard any bad things about him from my parents; even my parents are saluting him!

 What a great man he really is and such a great father he was to his daughters and to all the Nagueños out there who are now experiencing grief.  I just wish he’s in a good place right now. He has done more than enough contribution for us in the field of politics and I salute him for that. He is in no doubt the father of Naguenios.

Rest in peace po. 

We will all miss you! 

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I...I...don't know.

Kaya nga opinyon di ba? PART 1

ehem. gusto ko lang magdrama ngunyan ta feel ko nanaman mgdrama pero the difference is that I'm not crying this time and it's kinda weird. Well, dakulun pa akong gibuhun, maadal pa ako, mabasa and many others pero before that ----- madrama muna ako. lol.

I'm now in the state of thinking....again. last akong nag-isip-isip yung "war days" pero ngayon nag-iisip-isip nanaman ako ---- bakit?

By "isip-isip" usually i'd like to do that alone, analyze the situation and come up with a solution. I have matured now, hindi na ako iyakin, kahit gustohin ko man umeksena pag alas dose ng hapon ay hindi ko na kya.

 I am now full of wisdom, marunon na akong lumaban, natuto na rin akong ipahayag ang sarili kong saloobin nang hindi nasasapawan ng opinyon ng iba, kaya nga opinyon di ba? ibig sabihin AKIN 'YON, kung hahaluan ng opinyon mo, hindi ko na pag-aari yung opinyong iyon, sa'yo na yun, anu ako shunga? opinyon mo opinyon ko rin? yun siguro yung mga pagkakamali ko nung simula pa lamang. Maxado kasi akong mabait, kaya hayun, nawala yung pagkatao ko.

Pero ngayon iba na. Ibang iba. kapag binangga mo ako, mumurahin kita. kapag tinarayan mo ako, mumurahin pa rin kita. sabihin mo nang masama ako pero sino ba ang nagsimula? Hindi na ako mabait tulad ng dati, mabait pa naman pero nasa tama na. Mabilis na akong magalit pero sa kalmadong paraan.

Nagkamali na ako't nasaktan. Hindi ko na uulitin 'yon. why would I make the same mistake twice? shunga-shunga lang? Hindi ako bobo, nalaman kong may utak ako at dapat ko itong gamitin kontra puso.

Naiinis ako sa mga nagsasabing nagbago na ako. I didn't change, you just didn't know me.

Marunon na rin pala akong magdesisyon para sa aking sarili, kaya I don't need people to dictate me what I should or should not do. At mas lalong hindi ko kailangan ng mga taong tuturuan ako kung ano ang tama at mali. Sa tingin ko may sarili naman akong utak at kung magkamali man ako hindi na 'yon problema ng ibang tao, pakialamera lang?

Kinasusuklaman ko rin ang mga judgemental people. aaminin ko, minsan na akong naging judgemental at kung ibabato mo sa akin ang "noon" ko ----- kaya nga nagbabago na di ba? Sa mga taong mapaghusga, ito lang ang masasabi ko bukod sa "fuck you" ---- I wasn't born to impress you.

Bukod rin sa judgemental people, kinamumuhian ko rin ang mga tinatawag kong "Hasty generalization people" kasi naman kaunting pagkakamali, hayun, alam niya na "daw" buhay mo, bitch lang eh. Ito lang ang masasabi ko sa mga taong ito bukod sa "Mas fuck you ka" ------- Ikaw na ata ang pinakababaw na taong nakilala ko, lahat na lang? anu ba! nag-mini shorts lang flirt na? nakipagkaibigan lang sa iba via chat flirt na? nagcompliment lang flirt na? sumayaw lang flirt na? Marami lang nagagwapuhan flirt na? porke ba hindi ako stick-to-one sa crush flirt na? naghahang-out lang sa boys flirt na? nag-a-accept lang ng hindi kakilala sa FB flirt na? anu 'to PBB teens? shunga ka ba? kung iyan lang naman ang pinagbabasehan mo ng pagkatao ng isang tao: FUCK YOU PO FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. Maaari bang idefine mo muna ang flirt bago mo ito ibato sa akin o sa ibang tao? Oh-em ito pa pala, hindi ko tlga alam ang ginawa ko pero mayabang na ako agad-agad? Hindi ba sila tinuruan ng nanay nila na huwag pakialaman ang buhay ng may buhay? 

 ^ito po pala ang summarized version ng mga ayaw ko sa tao. Ito yung mga taong gusto kong isubsob sa inidoro. kung  ikaw ay ganito  ay lumayu-layo ka sa paningin ko. 


In short ay huwag na lamang pakialaman ang aking buhay, may buhay ka rin naman ah, iyan kaya muna asikasuhin mo.

Hindi ako mahina, kung physically ---- isa akong athleta, malakas, maliksi, kung ako ang tatanungin halos lahat ng sports nasalihan ko na ----- swimming,basketball,badminton,soccer,kickbaseball,baseball,volleyball,golf,sipa,tumbang preso,ki-ki,chinese garter, at iba pang mga sports. Hindi madali pero ginawa ko ito, naging matapang ako para subukan ang mga ito, at ang aking mga sugat ang bakas ng aking pagkatuto. kung emosyonal naman, oo, maaaring nagiging mahina ako, pero nagagawa lang naman ito ng mga taong mahal kong totoo sa mga taong walang saysay sa 'kin ay mabilis ko namang namumura.

Kung mapapansin hindi naman ako ngdadrama. ngpapahayag lamang ako ng saloobin ---- isang opinyon. Mga salita ko. kung hindi mo gusto ang mga nabasa mo ay wala akong pakialam. Kaya nga opinyon di ba? Hindi mo kailanman maitatama ang isang opinyon sa isa pang opinyon. Shunga-shunga ang taong gagawa noon. 


Hahaha. joke. Ako pa rin naman si Reina, yung "sweet" daw. minsan naiirita ako kapag sinasabihan akong sweet kasi minsan hindi kapani-paniwala. Masayahin talaga ako, depende na lamang kung malungkot ang mood. Kapag emo ako ay kausapin lang ako ng kausapin kasi kapag walang kumakausap sa akin ako ay ----- wala naman. Naha-hyper rin ako, at kapag nangyari ito huwag ka nang mabigla sa mga ginagawa at kaya kong gawin, kaya nga hyper eh.


Intro palang ito sa kasalukuyan kong pinag-iisip-isipan. Mabigat ito kaya hindi kaya sa isang upuan lang. :))))))))

Holy Macaroni

               I am vain, I am proud, I am loud, I eat veggies, I love purple, I drink beer, I watch anime, I am nice, I touch, I bully, I love, I get hurt, I love again, I get hurt again, I make mistakes, I love my friends, I value everything, I get jealous, I get mad, I curse, I do something bad, I regret it, I am evil, I like hugs, I am calm, I am brief, I am random, I wanna be queen, I need someone, I am Reina, I am me. -------              It seems so hard to find myself truly like, what on earth? I should've written this blog a few days ago but I was too lazy too, so.. here it is. Let me tell you the story of my life..

 This all started one day when I saw this young man, about my age, He was kind, funny and-white. so it didn't took me a minute to like him that instantly, even gave him a codename, Bubblybear. I cried, I laughed, I fell in love, I got hurt, I was bitter, and I----moved on. Yes I did. Even though it meant being attached to friends---no, let's tantamount my friends to bestfriends. But before I did move on, there was this blog of mine that always reminded me of him ----- http://reinapontejos.blogspot.com/ Well honestly, I already have access to this blog and I could delete it any time I want, but no, I wouldn't entirely want that. Anyway, past is past. Moving on to my story---- I think my feelings for him was light, very light compared to the next ones.

 I had this friend, let's call this friend Jellybean, nice, bubbly, brave, and bold but I didn't know what happened, I seem to have misplaced my files about Jellybean. Maybe I just got hurt, too hurt. I thought Jellybean was pushing me away so I did. 

 Then there's this another, let's call this another friend Charcoal:) Well Yeah~~> this was the wrong one, the one I should've stopped earlier when I could, well, not like I didn't learn better from Jellybean, it was the same situation-----the IMPOSSIBLE one. Actually I met Jellybean and Charcoal both at the same time, at the same day, at the same place, in the same manner, at the wrong moment When I saw their faces, I first noticed charcoal and I knew what I was thinking but ignored it, then there stood Jellybean, standing there so----innocent .They're actually friends, well not entirely friends but they had contact once. 

I am writing this blog because of Charcoal, whom I thought I've purposely misplaced my memories of. Yes ---purposely. I wanted to forget Charcoal the way I did with Jellybean. Charcoal is, well I'd describe as a demon hidden in a horrible demon. A demon I'm telling you, like a burning charcoal. But unlike Jellybean, Charcoal is smarter, more attractive in a way, reasonable and... just smarter,ok? But not smarter than me, I think. Charcoal could've beaten me if it wasn't for the lazy attitude. But because of Charcoal   .............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................. 

Shoot. I'm tired. I could just say that I'll write again tomorrow but I know myself enough to know that I won't, Hahaha. Anyway -- "Ta-da!" The story of my---------, well it's not my life, I can't call it my lovelife either, It wasn't love and it had no life. so------


 It's just "A story" then.


Purely fictional >:)))

Once in my life

It's exactly 10:03 PM and goodness. I'm crying. why the hell am I crying? Ahh alam ko na, cguro kasi naalala ko lang yung mga days na nanjan xa, di ko lang napapansin yung presence niya. Ginawa ko xang laruan, I used him for my own good. Nagpagamit nman ako kahit alam kong masasaktan siya. I just realized na he loved me:(


It wasn't official. My feelings are on and off for him. Sometimes I only remember him when he talks to me or when I realize that I'm alone. I feel guilty that I threw away his only reminder of him for me, why did I even do that.fu. I don't know if I'm overreacting or I just miss him.


 I don't even know If I fell in love with him or I'm just stopping myself from falling since I know the consequences. I think I did fall for him but I keep on denying it to myself because it was very...unexpected. I only dreamed of being with the guy that I like, not with a guy that likes me. I was unprepared for that. He suddenly entered my life TOO FAST that I just had to stop.


Now talking to him seems pretty awkward. I think we're really better off as friends. No, not friends, more than friends, but less than lovers. I think meeting him was fate, a test on love, I learned that love can be as sweet as honey or as bitter as coffee. I experienced honey moments with him and I will always cherish that, I will always remember that he was once a part of my life. I will never forget him.


Oh my gosh. I started crying while writing this blog and I end up feeling nothing. see what I mean? on and off!  nkakaGG, Haha. well atleast I have this blog to remind me of the feeling that I feel whenever I remember him. and it's now 10:53 PM. so it was 50 minutes of drama. K. 


so here's the song that always remind me of him. Enjoy :)

OooUmm Ooo Yeah

Di ko malaman ang nadarama
Sa tuwing ikay aking nakikita
May kung ano sa damdamin
At abot-abot ang kaba

Sa araw-araw ay nagtataka?
Ang puso kong ito, o bakit ba?
Ang kilos koy nababago,
Na halos naandiyan ka na.

[CHORUS:]
Di makatulog sa gabi sa kaiisip
Sa diwa koy ikaw ang aking panaginip.
O bakit ba ikaw ang siyang laging laman ng isip ko
Sa bawat sandali ay nais kang makita
Kapag tumitig na sa akin ay ligaya
Anong hiwaga ang nadarama anong kaba

Paano mo kaya ako mapapansin?
Malaman mo kaya ang aking damdamin?
Ano ang dapat sabihin ng puso kong may pagtingin?

Sa araw-araw ay nagtataka?
Ang puso kong ito, o bakit ba?
Ang kilos koy nababago,
Na halos naandiyan ka na.

[CHORUS:]
(Instrumental)

Sa araw-araw ay nagtataka?
Ang puso kong ito, o bakit ba?
Ang kilos koy nababago,
Na halos naandiyan ka na.

[CHORUS:]

Di makatulog sa gabi sa kaiisip
Sa diwa koy ikaw ang aking panaginip.
O bakit ba ikaw ang siyang laging laman ng isip ko
Sa bawat sandali ay nais kang makita
Kapag tumitig na sa akin ay ligaya
Anong hiwaga ang nadarama anong kaba

Di makatulog sa gabi Ooo Ooo
Sa diwa ko sa isip ko

 http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/t/tootsie_guevara/




Yes. Oh yes. KABA.. 


"Ang puso kong ito, o bakit ba?"

Read between the lines

This isn't actually one of my dramas  as the blogger says. Because of my boredom I decided to surf some songs and I found the song Flightless bird by American mouth really, superb interesting. It made me WOW like hell. this link will show you why: http://derric16.multiply.com/journal/item/268/FLIGHTLESS_BIRD_AMERICAN_MOUTH_song_meaning?&show_interstitial=1&u=%2Fjournal%2Fitem


It deciphered the real meaning of the song. At first you would think that the singer was such a nonsense for writing such song but the real meaning behind was YEAH. isn't that amazing? and because of that, I decided to write something for a certain somebody :)))))) not sure kung babasahin niya 'to well here it goes:

We were once Mickey and Timmy who became Tom and Jerry, 

But then the night fell and triggered my bones.

It was midnight when I realized, they were singing angels all along.

I just had to explore the oceans more, I had to go and leave my treasures for the angels

.There were times where my heart skips a beat and weeps as I watch an antique photo of my precious diamonds.

 They were a gift and I exchanged it for a fairy tale. 

But the breeze and the flowing sea kept me going to you. 

I have never adored such an intense feeling.

I know this is beyond the law because these are mere facts with opinions, 

since you're a bunny and I'm a bunny too. 

Everyday I long for that satin cloth of yours. 

This may sound like a jack in a box but please, Jack's just in love. 

But why are the stars falling down my cheek?

 I have brought you the moon but you keep smashing me. 

I thought the sky would finally calm, Oh how I ponder it would. 

I've been here for years trying to count my hair. 

I'm all juggled but all I know is, 

there wouldn't be a Tom without its Jerry.

I separated the lines but this should really look like an essay since it doesn't rhyme. lol. It's up to you if you want to decipher its meaning. It's easy to know if you just read between the lines ♥

"Since you're a bunny and I'm a bunny too :( "

I'm exceptional

Here I am surfing the net as usual, this is just what I do EVERY YEAR, I just wait for a certain somebody to talk to me for some reason. Well, I'm obviously, indefinitely bored. It's been two weeks since our summer vacation from school, and approximately 4-5 months away from the issues and dramas, I'm missing my bestfriends, all of them:(

This blogger, by the way, is what me and my bestfriends made to stay in touch with each other, to somehow survive the days that we're not together LAST YEAR. I miss my summer last year, it was actually fun, miserable but fun and because of my sentimental self I decided to drop by my old photos and look at them for a while, to see how I've grown like this, what I've been through. I've also seen what I lost and what I gained for the last year and I ended up staring at two blogs, this: http://bloggingmysummer.blogspot.com/2011/04/today-is-wednesday.html and this: http://beadachatterboxx.blogspot.com/2011/04/listening-to-one-of-jojos-songs-while.html.

YES, those are the bloggers of my bests which we used to stay updated with each other throughout the summer. Full of memories and well..yeah. But what really sticked to my mind was one of the posts of bea in her blog: "Reina, Gorgeous" I first declared myself gorgeous in sixth grade, I used the word gorgeous since I want a word most likely to be similar with beautiful and pretty that would be most appropriate to describe a Queen, I pondered that it would be unethical to call a Queen cute or bubbly so I used gorgeous instead, It sounded FORMAL - yes that's the word..FORMAL. moving on, I am gorgeous, not physically in an attractive way, I am aware that I am not that pretty, but just gorgeous, I don't like explaining okay?XP

I just recalled the song, it brings back so much memories, telling me that I'm exceptional. Well I am :( thanks to this song, I have found myself again, which I almost lost in the past 5 months.                                           
I am Exceptional. :)

♫ You're beautiful but you don't know

Can't see what's there inside your soul

Always feelin like you're not good enough

You wish you could be someone else

Sometimes you just can't see yourself

But I can see just who you are, who you are

You're exceptional the way you are

Don't need to change for nobody

You're incredible, anyone can see that

When will you believe that?

You are nothing but exceptional

(Yeah)

If you could see the one I see when I see you

You'd know how lucky you are to be you

I see through into you

And you are

You're exceptional the way you are

Don't need to change for nobody

You're incredible, anyone can see that

When will you believe that? (You are)

You're exceptional the way you are

Don't need to change for nobody

You're incredible, anyone can see that

When will you believe that?

You are nothing but exceptional ♫